My So-Called Life

Man.. sometimes you get some bunk ass shit..

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 10:15:39 GMT

It's been a while. But after sometimes I've noticed some new things. Sometimes it sucks,for a long time even. But you gotta keep yeah head up. Most of the time it could be hanging down, but you know there's that one thing or one person that will make you smile, make u lift up yo head. Hey it's better to regret doing something, that regret not doing anything at all. The way I look at it, I think i'm doing alright, hopefully everything works out as planned, cause im willing to do whatever it takes. Somtimes change is a risk, and a risk is something you gotta take sometimes in life. *ALWAYS YOU*

What Elese can i say?

Fri, 10 Feb 2006 08:00:57 GMT

I havent updated this for a long time and i think i need to straighten some shit out. After looking and realzing a lot of shit, i look back on it and think that in the long run, its not worth it not, now, cause it will all come years down the road. Don't rush things, cause its the time of your life, have fun, but do it carefully. But the one thing, thats worth risking it all, everything, you put them in front of everything, everyone, you make sure you never give up or go down without a fight. Cause you're gonna regret it. Also, i've noticed its a very greedy game, and you know its time for me to take a bow, and take a step back, the game has been fun, but i think its time to give it up, it will always be there no matter what. But if none of it happened i wouldnt be who i am today or met the fucking cool ass people i know today. And thats what u need to cheerish cause it doesnt last forever. No matter what I'm still me I'm not going ne where.

Up in the good ol Sloshkosh

Fri, 03 Feb 2006 10:17:28 GMT

COLD TURKEY now, i was bored and i couldnt sleep so i felt i should update the LJ, listen to this song and pay attention to the lyrics

JAMES BLUNT: GOODBYE MY LOVER

Seeing how im cold turkey, now i was boreDid I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.(x2)

What elese should I say.....

Fri, 06 Jan 2006 08:47:46 GMT

So break was a lot of fun....lot of S'n some B's and hanging with the fellas. Buddachris came back! Congrats on B Dubbs, Wiz, whatever u call em these days on joining the BSO. I miss being home. Oshkosh is great and all, but i really miss the fellas and all my friends. You guys are my life. I really realized a lot of shit after break and all.. Yes im on acadec probation. My own fault for that too much partying and going to the bars i guess. Fake ID's are bad news bears. DRINK DRINK DRINK DRINK DRINK, everyday. but what i really realized is that i have the greatest bunch of friends in the world. I couldnt't ask for more. BSO! Christmas was alright I mean i guess things change as you get older but i like seeing family i havent seen in a while. I dont get around to that too much either. I met my moms boyfriends family over christmas day. It was actually a lot better than i thought his son and daughter are really cool ass people. I could see myself gettting along with them real well inthe future. But dad i still got yo back! So break came to the end and new years came around...there wasn't shit to do i thought it was going to be the worst new years ever. Like always My guy doug mcglug came through and we partied hard as his house. But when i got there everyone was wasted chellsta and her friends were tanked and i was sober. It was kinda bunk. I guess i was to sober. Something happened there that i really didn't expect but they did. Its weird how everything can all come back to you in a blink of an eye. One thing happens and your whole past hits you. I was pretty pissed about that cause i know that nothing was going to happen in the future. As long as she's happy. So after all the bullshit happened peeps were going down for the count puking and Passn out. I got real hammered. Real hammered i wasn't goin ne where so celebrated new years. Doug Mcglug missed the countdown...it happens, i missed it 3 years b4 cause i was too drunk. So me and tom made a toast: heres to the past they can kiss my glass...

So the so called winterum started i mean its not that bad one class a day at 1pm for three weeks, I guess its an excuse to get wasted everynight. Well its sucks my teacher is a faggot. He takes things way to seriously. Wake the fuck and relax man. Drink a beer, smoke a bowl, get laid, i don't care. O yeah i got the flu to othe other day but im good now. Next year im not taking this winterum. I rather have the whole month off.

O yeah im lookn for a job!
New Years Resolution: quit smokn bud for a while.....so i can pass a DT for a job and for my own good. But not for good...just let my tolerance go down. i dunno how long it will work. It hasnt yet hahahahahahah YEA.....(IF UR BSO U KNOW THE REST OF THE SAYING)

o yeah FUCK THE COPS for trying to ruin my kegger. FUCK THE POLICE>>>>EAT SHIT AND DIE MOTHER FUCKERS I HOPE U ALL GET SHOT. PEWAUKEE COPS SUCK MY DICK BITCHES. EAT UR FUCKING DONUTS AND DRINK UR COFFEE AND BEAT OFF CAUSE THATS ALL THE ACTION UR GONNA GET while workn for PEWAUKEE FINEST. RUB YO CLIT, AND MAKE UR KNUCKLE BABIES! O YEAH MR VAN HULLE WE STILL HATE U CAN BURN IN HELL AS WELL, U PIECE OF SHIT ROT MOTHER FUCKER ROT. MNEIGHBORS CAN DIE TOO. FUCKING SWINGERS, WHO THE FUCK HAS A HOUSE FIRE...WHAT U DO BURN UR TOAST OR SOMETHING U FUCKN IDIOTS! (sorry for the randomness I'm just very pissed about a few situations) I hope u all get curbies!

Deja Vu

Tue, 13 Dec 2005 07:45:59 GMT

Finals week is today and I am not looking forward to it. Papers, and test aren'y my cup of tea. But i dunno while studying today the movie How to lose a guy in 10 days was on, I mean im not really a chick flick kind of guy but i like Matthew Mcconaughey, and it wasn't that bad of a movi. It was like like deja vu in some ways i guess, weird. O well just thought I'd add that b4 bed.

Hear this..

Wed, 07 Dec 2005 22:57:00 GMT

As the semester ends, It's getting kinda hectic, I can't get in the classes i want to get in cause my academic advisor is a stupid ass mother fucker, I bet I'm smarter that his bitch ass. So everyday I have to go online and check to see if ne classes opened up and a bunch of bullshit. and Some people on campus piss me off, I hope u fuckers die slow and burn in hell, you know who you are, and when it happens i want to be there with a big fucking smile on my face. I can't wait to go home for break. S.W.E.D. Oh Niggie!

This is fucking stupid

Wed, 30 Nov 2005 07:18:19 GMT

I was bored, this thing is pretty gay ( o well im a loser)

10 Firsts:
First Best Friend(s): The Crew, B.S.O., if u dont know who they are, sucks for u!
First Screen Name: Rpr3868462 , it was a aol free trial lol
First Pet: Lennon,Bichon dog
First Piercing: Ears, and cartilage
First Crush: I dunno Alysa Alters maybe
First Music: 106.1 FM 106... country
First Car: The seafoam green mini van
First love: U all know at least in p-town and lot of u in o-town..(KK)
First stuffed animal: Curious George
First time sex: Senior Year

9 Lasts:
Last Cigarette: A while ago, i dont care im not afraid to die
Last Movie Seen: Traffic
Last Phone Call: The godfather = aka Tom Girmschied, Doug McGlug Markwardt
Last CD Played: Pall Wall's new cd!
Last bubble bath: junior year after football game
Last time you cried: a few weeks ago
Last song listened to: When I'm Gone: Eminem
Last thing you ate: Chewy Granola
Last thing you drank: Chocolate Milk NIGGIES

8 Have You Evers:
Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends: No
Been Arrested: No (knock on wood)!!!!!!!!
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: Yes
Have You Ever Been on TV: The news
Have You Ever Kissed Someone and Then Regretted It: Yes, i dont rememember tho hahah
Have You Ever had a Sex Dream About Someone You Knew: U bet
Have you ever had sex: yes
Have you ever cheated: No
7 Things You're Wearing:
1. Lucky Jeans!
2. Aber Moose boxers
3. Socks
4. Pewaukee T
5. Wisconsin Badgers hoodie
6. Michigan hat
7. a gun holster for my glock 9mm OH NIGGIE!

6 Things You've Done Today:
1. Slept
2. Got up
3. Went to class
4. Cheefed
5. Video Games
6. did this stupoid survey

5 favorite things In NO order
1. Family
2. Friends BSO!
3. alcohol
4. Football
5. Orange Juice

4 People You Can Tell [almost] Anything to:
1. My close friends BSO
2. Pillowkace
3. Michelle
4. IDK ne more

3 Choices:
1. Black or White: White
2. Hot or Cold: Hot
3. Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla

2 Things you want to do before you die
1. Some on the coast of somewhere
2. Married with a happy family and kids

1 thing you regret:
1. DRUGS and alcohol, sometimes

Updated..hope u like it LM!!!

Wed, 30 Nov 2005 07:02:25 GMT

On the good days, I feel like I get it, like it all makes sense. I can stay in the moment, I don't have to control everything in the future, and I believe everything is gonna work out fine. On the bad days I just want to grab the phone and start dialing numbers. I want to pull my hair and run through the streets screaming.

you guys aint shit

Fri, 04 Nov 2005 19:57:13 GMT

SCORE: 177

Put an X by the movies you've seen. If you get more than 70, you're a movie whore.
COPY and REPOST ! PLACE YOUR SCORE IN THE SUBJECT LINE
AT THE BOTTOM OF THE LIST PUT YOUR SCORE AND NAME !
(x)Pirates of the Caribbean
(x)Boondock Saints
(x)The Mexican
(x)Fight Club
(x)Starsky and Hutch
()Neverending Story
()Blazing Saddles
(x)Garden State
(x)The Princess Bride
()Young Frankenstien
(x)AnchorMan
(x)Napoleon Dynamite
(x)Saw
(x)White noise
(x)White Oleander
(x)Anger Management
total here: 13
(x)50 First Dates
(x)Jason X
(x)Scream
(x)Scream 2
(X)Scream 3
(x)Scary Movie
(x)Scary Movie 2
(x)Scary Movie 3
(X) American Pie
(X) American Pie 2
(x) American Wedding
(x)Harry Potter
(x)Harry Potter 2
(x)Harry Potter 3
(x)Resident Evil I
()Resident Evil 2
(x)The Wedding Singer
()Little Black Book
total here : 16
()The Village
(x)Donnie Darko
(x)Lilo & Stitch
(x)Finding Nemo
(x)Finding Neverland
(x)13 Ghosts
(x)Signs
(x)The Grinch
(x)Texas Chainsaw Massacre
(x)White Chicks
(x)Butterfly Effect
(x)Thirteen going on 30
(x)I,Robot
(x)Dodgeball
(x)Universal Soldier
()A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(x)Along Came A Spider
()Deep impact
total here : 15
(x)KingPin
(x)Never Been Kissed
(x)Meet The Parents
()Meet the Fockers
(x)Eight Crazy Nights
(x)A Cinderella Story
(x)The Terminal
(x)The Lizzie McGuire Movie
(x)Passport to Paris
(X)Dumb & Dumber
()Dumb & Dumberer
(x)Final Destination
(x)Final Destination 2
(x)Halloween
(x)The Ring
(x)The Ring 2
(x)Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle
(x)Practical Magic
(x)Chicago
(x)Ghost Ship
(x)From Hell
()Hellboy
()Secret Window
(x)I Am Sam
(x)The Whole Nine Yards
(x)The Whole Ten Yards
(x)The Day After Tomorrow
(x)Child's Play
(x)Bride of Chucky
(x)Ten Things I Hate About You
(x)Just Married
(x)Gothika
(x)Nightmare on Elm Street
(x)Sixteen Candles
(x)Bad Boys
(x)Bad Boys 2
(x)Joy Ride
(x)Seven (SE7EN)
(x)Oceans Eleven
(x)Oceans Twelve
(x)Identity
total here : 36
()Lone Star
(x)Predator I
(x)Predator II
(x)Independence day
(x)Cujo
()A Bronx Tale
(x)Darkness Falls
()Christine
(x)ET
(x)Children of the Corn
(x)My boss' daughter
(x)Maid in Manhattan
(x)Frailty
()Best Bet
(x) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x)She's All That
(x)Calendar Girls
()Sideways
(x)Mars Attacks
total here : 14
()Event Horizon
(x)Ever after
(x)Forrest Gump
()Big Trouble in Little China
(x)X-men 1
(x)X-men 2
(x)Catch Me If You Can
(x)The Others
(x)Freaky Friday
(x)Reign of Fire
(x)The Hot Chick
(x)Swimfan
(x)Miracle
(x)Old School
(x)Ray
(x)The Notebook
(x)K-Pax
total here : 15
(x)Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(x)Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(x)Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(x)A Walk to Remember
(x)Boogeyman
(x)Hitch
()The Fifth Element
(x)Star Wars episode I: The Phantom Menace
(x)Star Wars episode II:Attack of The Clones
(x)Star Wars episode III: Revenge of The Sith
(x)Star Wars episode IV: A New Hope
(x)Star Wars episode V: The Empire Strikes Back
(x)Star Wars episode VI: Return of The Jedi
(x)Troop Beverly Hills
()Swimming with Sharks
(x)Air Force One
()For Richer or Poorer
()Trainspotting
()People Under the Stairs
()Blue Velvet
(x)Sound of music
(x)Parent Trap
()The Burbs
(X)The Terminator
(x)Empire Records
(x)SLC Punk
(x)Meet Joe Black
()Wild Girls
()A Clockwork Orange
() The Order
(x)Spiderman
(x)Spiderman 2
()Amelie
total here : 22
(x)Mean Girls
(x)Shrek
(x)Shrek 2
(x)The Incredibles
(x)Collateral
(x)The Fast & The Furious
(x)2 Fast 2 Furious
()Sky Captain Of The World Of Tomorrow
(x)Closer
total here: 8
(x)Titanic
(x)Saved!
(x)Bowling for Columbine
(x)Farenheit 9/11
(x)The Sixth Sense
(x)Artificial intelligence (AI)
(x)Love, Actually
()Shutter
()Ella Enchanted
()Princess Diaries
(x)Princess Diaries 2
(x)Constantine
(x)Million Dollar Baby
()Envy
(x)Eurotrip
()Malibu's Most Wanted
(x)Big Daddy
(x)Black Sheep
(x)The Breakfast Club
(x) West side story
total here :16

(x)A Christmas Story
(x)Spanglish
(x)Pulp Fiction
()Sleepover
()The Evil Dead
()Killer Klowns From Outer Space
(x)The Seed of Chucky
(x)Vanilla Sky
(x)Nightmare Before Christmas
()Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind
()Interview With The Vampire
(x)The Crow
()Purple Rain
(x)Reservoir Dogs
(X)Wayne's World
total here : 9
(x)Wayne's World 2
(x)1 Grams
(x)Blow
(x)Edward Scissorhands
(x)Clerks
(x)Beauty and the Beast
(x)Guess Who
()Monster in-law
(x)Elf
(x)Stuart Little
(x)Stuart Little 2
(x)Mall Rats
(x)Chasing Amy
(x)Dogma
(x)Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back
total here : 14
()Beetlejuice
(x)The Last Samurai
(x)The Amityville Horror
(x)The Aviator
(X)Romeo and Juliet
(x)Barbershop
()Beauty Shop
(x)Legally Blonde
()Legally Blonde 2
(x)The Forgotten
()Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen
(x)The Grudge
total here: 8

hmmmm bored as hell i dunno y i am doing this

Fri, 28 Oct 2005 22:58:30 GMT

10 years ago, I:
- was 7, and in 3th grade
- my best friend was Seth "Schom Dog" Schommer
- was a harcore athlete

5 years ago, I:
- was 13, in 8th grade
- never went to middle school dances haha
- had a crush on Alyssa Alters.
- played b-ball?

1 year ago, I:
- was a Senior at the shithole we call Pewaukee High School
- turned 18, and still was able to buy alc
- I thought my life couldn't get any worse
- Hated Pewaukee High School and how they love to ruin peoples lives
- Had a lot of fun, everyday seemed like a party now that i look back on it, haha
- Hung out with my friends 24/7

Yesterday I:
- Went to a Halloween Frat party
- Got really wasted! and woke up wasted
- Went for a cruise
- Kissed some girl in Oshkosh

5 snacks I enjoy:
- Nacho Con Queso
- Taco Bell
- Beer
- Liqour
- munching out

5 songs I know all the words to:
- Many country songs
- D.H.T listen to your heart, you dont want to know y..
- Every Tool Song
- Young Jeezy songs

5 things I would do with 100 million dollars:
- buy a new car
- buy my dad a huge house on the lake
- sit on my ass
- spoil my gf, wife, kids i dunno...to far away to think about
- um you don't wanna know

5 places I would run away to:
- Dougs
- Phillipeans
- mexico
- I won't tell u the rest, Why? cause ur a stranger

5 things I would never wear:
- high waters
- a thong
- a wrestling singlet ever again
- jncos
- gay shit

5 favorite TV shows:(not in order)
- family guy
- The OC
- 48 Hours
- Sports Center
- Pimp My Ride

5 bad habits:
- procrastinating
- stoping on a green light when turning right
- drinking too much somtimes
- not giving a shit

5 biggest joys:
- My friends
- My family
- having fun**
- being lazy
- eating food, other than the Dirty Bird

5 fictional characters I would date:
- Hmm the possibilities?

A update finally, now u can read it Lindsey

Fri, 28 Oct 2005 20:35:39 GMT

It's been a long time since an update. I'd have to say up here in oshvegas is pretty crazy...maybe I should cutback on the drinking. Being up here I've noticed somethings in life that I don't exactly see in what we call P-town. I've noticed that there are a of nice people in the world. It's just how they are. I mean its obvious that there is good people in the world but, up here, I dunno i just notice it a bit more. Then of coarse there a bunch of faggot ass pieces of shit up here. Maybe this will help: Listen to the song Aenima by Tool:

Fuck all these gun-toting
Hip gangster wanna-bes

Learn to swim... Learn to swim... Learn to swim... Learn to swim...

Fuck retro anything
Fuck your tattoos
Fuck all you junkies
And fuck your short memory

Learn to swim... Learn to swim... Learn to swim... Learn to swim...

Fuck smilie glad-hands with hidden agendas
Fuck these dysfunctional, insecure actresses

So Chris will be back b4 christmas, Hell yea! Lee and Steve just left for quite a long time I miss u fellas! Theres not a day that goes by I don't think about you guys! Don't worry your not forgetten, BSO!

Ernest Hemingway once wrote, The world is a fine place and worth fighting for. I agree with the second part.

Cause it's you and me....

Wed, 28 Sep 2005 05:43:53 GMT

Fuck The Notebook it's too depressing..don't watch it....

Me study?

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 03:50:05 GMT

Wow today i studied for the first time in like 2 years.....it felt kinda weird but actually a bit realving when i got done....i guess im going to have to get used to this sorta thing..O well...I haven't made too many friends up here but everyone ive meet are pretty tight... Classes are alright kinda gay especially math cuase the teacher is a slow ass talker..we'll see how far that goes. I miss u all in p-town especially the fellas. See ya at HC BITCHES! My roomie isnt here to much so i kinda do my own thing...it can get kinda gay sometimes but its only the beginning. BSO!

hmmm

Mon, 12 Sep 2005 15:26:23 GMT

I feel like i could do this all day everyday.....drink...Fletcher is da shit

and so it is just like you said it would be

Sat, 10 Sep 2005 08:09:25 GMT

College life up is Oshslosh OshVegas whatever you want to call it is a lot better than I thought it would be who knows how long or how short ill stay...I miss all of you at home. I guess i got to move on with my own life.....Everyone up here are so nice its pretty tight. Well im out cause im cashed. Peace out

I don't want it, I just need it, to breathe to know to feel I'm alive

Thu, 28 Jul 2005 23:33:15 GMT

sorry for no recent updates i guess ive just been getting caught up in doing so much stuff. After many long nights and serious convos i think i have a better look at life and people in general.... I love my friends! I guess life is what happens when your busy making other plans. Sorry for the short update guys....Peace

Casue its something unpredictable but in the end it's right...........

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 19:31:02 GMT

Well graduation went pretty well....I can't believe i spent 13 years of my life in that place. Yeah it had its good memories and i wouldnt have experienced the things that i did or the people i met. I pretty much knew eveyone im my grade now im off to a totally differnt place where i wont know half the people ever lol. Maybe once but my the next day ill forget their name......It sucks everyone is basically staying here and how i like the only one going off to college out of town. Hah i even chose my college not based on academic or educational oppertunities or future........i should of chose uw-lax but o well.....not like ive made mistakes before. So just ebout everyday since graduation has been basically the consumtion of some sort or alcohol. I think its time for a break. I hate the fact that i wake up at like 130 or 230 everyday which ruins my whole day. Which pisses me off even though i wake up hung over or pissed usually. So im out of the shithole known as PHS the ruined me senior year. SO HULLE CADY AD ALL U FUCKS CAN BURN IN HELL AND DIE. ROT MOTHERFUCKER ROT!
But what elese can i say it happens in every high school. Politics thats all it is. I guess its kinda like how they say it in dazed and confused......"Well, look, I mean, all i'm saying is that if I ever start referring to these as the best years of my life...remind me to kill myself. Well all I'm saying is that I just wanna look back and say, that I did it the best I could while I was stuck in this place, had as much fun as I could when I was stuck in this place, played as hard as I could when I was stuck in this place."

So the grad party was prety tight...id have to say there were a lof of people there that came in and out...it was pretty sweet...Though i feel bad leaving my grad party while my family was there to see me and i never had the chance to see them. Kristin and PK's fam came both sides so that made my my day...i havent seen them in so long...it was nice seeing so many people i either A:wont see again B: Dotn see to often. Towards the end of the night was great i never thought people would karaoke....even myself..and seeing my dad up there wasted with paul was hillarious. And my mom being drunk talking to people and trying to rearrange some sort or reunitng as if nothing happened of the past year or so......is she fucking blind or was she not there in the beginning of the year. whatever. Lets hope i get back on track now.......

Marines NE ONE?

PS WHERES MY CLASS OF 2005 DVD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no one got their yet!

Had a bad day dont't talk to me

Tue, 24 May 2005 07:05:54 GMT

Today I just felt like shit I spent Sunday night at Dougs...so Doug went to bed and lee passed out and i couldnt fall asleep and i was freaking out at like 4 am...

To better understand heres a little something for yall.....

Tell your friends not to think aloud
Until they swallow
Whisper things into my brain
Your voice sounds so hollow

I am not a leader of men
Since I prefer to follow
Do you think I could have a drink
Since it's so hard to swallow
So hard to swallow

So turn the television off
and I will sing a song
And if you suddenly have the urge
You can sing along

I touch your hand, I touch your face
I think the fruit is rotten
Give me lessons on how to breathe
Cause I think I've forgotten
I think I've forgotten

THIS SUCKS

Thats right baby im going crazy......

Fri, 20 May 2005 14:57:42 GMT

You need people like me so you can point ur fucking figures and say that's the bad guy....so what that make you good?

Im gonna lose it soon real soon!

Sometimes somethings turn into dumb things......

Thu, 19 May 2005 05:18:58 GMT

I dunno what I am doing ne more....I dunno if im wasting my time or not. If I am wasting my time then i just wasted a whole bunch of time and i should regret everything I did and planned. I dunno how you couldn't tell.
I can't even believe i based my future off this shit...... Lately if feels like nothing can save me even though i know there is a way to do it. Im gettign pulled in and its consideratelly killing me right before my eyes and i dont even take the time of days to notice.

Lately it feel like everything is happening to fast and its not slowing down anytime soon. Its hard trust me on this take it from my perspective.

"It't not as all so east and you felalrs ting it migh tbe....you;d be satisified with five grand.but ill tell you, if you find something then, you couldn't be dragged away; not even the threat of miserable death could stop you getting jsut ten thousand more, And if you reach fifty, you want to make it a hundred to be safe for the rest of your life. When you finally have hundred and fifty, you want two hundred, to make sure. absoultely sure, that you'll be really be on the safe side, come what may."

Thats how it is no joke...

Days away I still feel you Touching me, changing me, And consideratley killing me.

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 05:44:12 GMT

So here it is listen to this. So a while ago my phone broke, actually it was a long time ago but i got it fixed a couple of weeks ago. Anywho I went to the Sprint store to see if they could tranfer my phone data to my new phone. So there were like sure no problem but when i got the phone back there were no ringtones and pictures. I asked the lady and she was like im sorry we can't do that. That fucking pissed me off. Especially the pictures. So today i had to send the new phone back and i had to erase all of its old data. So as i deleted the pictures it sucked cause I could rememeber ever picture and the day it took place as if it were yesterday. Which got me in a more pissed of mood. Kinda sucks when everthing seems to rewind for the moment, except it does it over and over again. Yeah...well it happens?

To add onto the mood I guess I'll be the only guy out of my friends to go far away from p-town for college next year. Everyone elese is going either to WCTC, Waukesha, or Milwaukee. Though meeting new people seems pretty sweet too. I dunno. Though it will kinda suck cause ill have to party away from the fellas. FUCK SHIT............

I gotta go big day tomorrow/today!!

As i throw your fucking throat away it will end no other way

Wed, 13 Apr 2005 03:28:18 GMT

Wow this shit is really getting fucked up lately. So i know add on to the other list of rents that think im a bad influence on their kid..at least i think so this time? I hope not.. O yeah for all of you out there that hasnt found out through the great vine yet. Yeah im out, i quit track. Am i proud of quiting? I wouldn't say so cause i kinda miss it, but I'm fed up with Pewaukee Track coaching staff bullshit. If u can't use ubest talents on a team then don't fucking coach and ruin other peoples oppertunity and dreams. Fuck this im out..i got nothing else to add.

Fucking terriost

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 07:05:49 GMT

I HATE TRACK FUCK IT AND EVERYTHING ABOUT IT......This season is starting off just great!

Save me

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 21:40:23 GMT

IM BACK FROM FLORIDA NOW!

you can't save me
you can't change me
well i'm waiting for my wake up call
and everything, everything's my fault

went to the doctor, and i asked her
to make this stop
got medication- a new addiction
fuckin thanks a lot.

had a relapse, i'm outta rehab
it ruins everything
so point your finger, at the senior
he's in the pharmacy

you can't save me
you can't change me
well i'm waiting for my wake up call
and everything, everything's my fault

and i'm a death threat haven't slept yet,
baby why the wake up call
i'm a bad boy, tell the tabloids,
everythings my fault

whoa whoa yeah, write it write it
whoa whoa yeah, write it write it
whoa whoa everything's my fault
everything's my fault

i went to heaven, i couldn't get in
for what i have done
i said please take me, they said you're crazy
you had too much fun

you can't save me
you can't change me
well i'm waiting for my wake up call
and everything's my fault

you can't save me
you can't blame me
well i'm waiting here to take a fall
and everything, everything's my fault

60's and sunny here

Sat, 19 Mar 2005 22:11:25 GMT

Im in florida now..lol its pretty tight they have a computer for each condo to use..whatever. so yeah after a long 21 hour drive i really feel like passing out. For a few hours of the ride i squeezed between the seats which sucks ass on the fact that you get stuck and u can't move literally. I just listened to music to pass the time. I also have come to the conclusion that listening TOOL really freaks me out when your in the dark. If you don't understand I'll explain later. It's ed up man. Well gotta go out get drunk and enjoy the sun! hahah suckers!